Well around here i'm known by the name of Judai; mainly because i tend to exercise caution on the internet because to be quite honest i don't know wich one of you guys may be my secret insane stalker XD. In anycase i decided that since i can't seem to post my worries and quite frankly things that make me kinda upset and angry anywhere with my real name, without being ridiculed by the people i thought we're my friends; Ya know the people that're supposed to support ya through thick and thin and all that bullshit. But in anycase these so called friends whom i've known since my fresman year in highschool (they were sophmores at the time) just recently in my junior year started to show their true sides.

Basicly this is what happend, My "friend" Sam had broken up with her boyfriend on tuesday only i had no idea; so i spent the entire week asking her how her relationship with him was going except she didn't even bother to correct me about the fact that the relationship had ended, and i mean she DIDN'T do a thing to even hint at it no uncomfterble shifts in position, no voice change nada. Natureally like a good friend should i felt terrible once i found out from SOMEONE else that they had broken up and here i had been all week long asking her how it was going; to be quite honest i felt like a bitch. The day afterwards on the bus i said to her that she could have corrected me about her and her boyfriend not being a couple anymore, so i wouldn't have sounded like a bitch all week long; she brushed it off and we went about her day. I later found out that she had been telling our entire group of friends that i had apparently bitched her out and yelled at her in front of everyone on the bus. She then started avoiding me like crazy a few of my actual friends say it's because she knows alot of people would side with me, because i don't bitch people out for not telling me about their relationships; what i had said to her had merely been me expressing that she had made me feel terrible by not telling me when i had asked how her relationship had been going Nothing more.

Anyways about a week afterwards my pet guinia pig died; the news spread apparently spread fast becasue before ya knew it Sam knew about it and when she found out she told my really close friend Kassie that "Isn't it so hilarious, that whenever Judai and i stop speaking one of her pets dies?" (that statment she made, mot true BTW she was trieing to be a bitch. Very upset i called my cousin and spilled all my troubles, basicly exirciseing my right to vent at my own family members. After i had hung up the phone; my cousin had taken it upon herself to send an admidditly rather rude message to Sam. However instead of confronting my cousin about the issue; Sam and her little lackys she calls friends began attacking me and telling me that I was takeing everything to far and that i was being the immature one. And then they all pointedly ignore the fact that i have no control over what my cousin does and if they have an issue with her then they need to speak to her not me. I really am getting sick of Sam and all her shit; but unfourtunately i can't do a thing to stop her so all i have to do are my journal entrys. I really can't wait for her to graduate and be compltely out of my hair for good. Anyways i'll write again later maybe when i have something way more intresting to type up; i just really needed to get all of this off of my chest before i exploded.

Sincerly Yours

Judai